I started the year very happy and optimistic especially when it comes to my reading and it started quite strongly with some very enjoyable reads and new experiences like manga and the saucy type of manga but in recent weeks my reading has slumped.

For many weeks I have literally read a page a day to maintain my Kindle reading streak but over the past ten days of so I have now gone about 5 or 6 days without opening my Kindle. I just feel a malaise and slump and can’t seem to pull myself out of it.

My last reading was finishing Last Testament in Bologna by Tom Benjamin and I haven’t picked up my Kindle since then. This is highly unusual for me, my reading streak was about 150 consecutive days and over 400 weeks in a row. Its very rare I had a missed day unless something cropped up or a server glitch.

I think personal life has contributed to it, as I am currently grieving still for a shock family bereavement in April. It really affected me and though I never saw the person as much as I used to, since his passing I cannot stop thinking about him and how his act and loss has destroyed and forever changed my family and its future. Reading, games are my forms of escapism and they offer little to no comfort for me currently, especially if there are scenes of abuse and self harm.

I am not depressed or anything, just wanted to write my thoughts and feelings and get it off my chest for myself. It is very cathartic to write it out and it helps. Only I probably will read this so its fine.